A friend reached out this a.m. after reading St Therese’s prayer. She has lost both her parents in the last few months. We chatted a bit about grief and asking for strength. She commented she wasn’t sure who she was talking to in her head, but that traditional beliefs did not have a presence in her life right now.
Completely understandable, we don’t feel very spirited in the wilderness.
It got me to thinking…
Faith. Does it matter what you are having faith in, or just that you are choosing to believe?
And which feels better right now– to project hope into a future positive possibility or to fear the worst?
Faith is seeing possibilities, not just problems. (What is a problem solver anyway? I think it’s just someone that believes in possible solutions.)

At first I was afraid, I was petrified

Gloria Gaynor

i will survive

A year ago today- I woke up with a 103 fever, the day after my son came down with one, and from there it spread like a west coast wildfire amongst friends and family. Covid- went from non-existent in our world to a potent super spreading virus as we experienced lockdown, first in our house, then our valley, then our country, then the world. 

       Each and every one of us has our stories- of good, bad, ugly as well as heart warming and fascinating. We suffered loss- be it of health, independence, community, loved ones, or our sense of security- nationally and otherwise. Whether it was directly from the virus itself or the ripple effect of quarantine and the varied reactions to all of the above, Covid inflamed our minds, bodies and spirit.  How we responded was about the only thing we had~ and ever have ~ control of.

        It is said, and I believe, meditation and quiet time in reflection is one of the best ways to gain control over our crazy thoughts. Scientifically proven to build new neural pathways, it’s proven: time spent chillin’ yields the ability to be chill when you need to be. 

         How did you respond to uncertainties and unknowns? And how did you make use of your newfound time? Did you find new rituals or responsibilities? Curiosities, micro communities or creative endeavors? I hope so. There were, and are, challenges– for sure. But many more possibilities. And much to be grateful for.  Including how far we have come in a year.

Take some time this week- end to be with your breath, in appreciation of all you’ve endured this year, and endeavored to make better. Holy moly. I bet you’ve made progress befriending uncertainty.  Who woulda thunk we could endure so much change?  Be grateful. You’ve survived. And maybe, just maybe, are the better for it. 

A Metta Meditation:

Developed by Anam Thubten for the development of loving kindness. Close your eyes and let your awareness rest on your breath. (1 minute) Now you visualize someone you love sit-in gin front of you (pause 10 seconds) – say the following to them with your whole heart. Then repeat; to someone you find challenging. And last to the whole world:

May you be safe from inner and outer harm
May you be free from guilt, shame, and hatred.
May you enjoy physical and mental well being.
May you live with the ease of an open heart.
May you be awakened to your true nature which is an inexhaustible source of love, compassion and wisdom.

by Anam Thubten


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